Thursday, Nov 20
Really, I have. A hundred different ideas have come to mind over the past several weeks of not putting words into the blogosphere. And yet, I just can’t bring myself to sit down and put my fingers on the keyboard. I actually draft entire posts, complete with photos and anecdotes, and never write them. “What’s wrong with me?” is usually what comes to mind when I walk in the office, sit down in the desk chair, and stare at the screen. I look at all sorts of other better blogs. I read post after post and pour over Facebook Blog Pages, Pinterest Boards, and Instagram accounts. I think about all the amazing women who carve time out of their schedules to write and share and help and point in the right direction. On the one hand I’m inspired, and, on the other hand, I feel guilty. I’m serious. I feel guilty that I haven’t blogged. I know that’s quite possibly the silliest thing I’ve ever written, but it’s true.
So, as you can imagine, it’s difficult for me to find the energy and motivation to write. And it’s so tricky, because, I know it will give me a boost to be creative here. It always does! But when you have SAD, you really struggle to complete even the most basic tasks. And with a husband and five kids to take care of, well, I’m swimming in basic tasks. Actually, I think the better visual would be treading water in basic tasks, doing my best to just keep my head up.
So yes, I’ve been thinking about blogging. Please know that I am here, and I am doing everything I can, with the help of an aware and giving husband, to thrive this fall and winter. I am growing in my empathy for those who struggle with depression year round. What a heavy, heavy cross is must be to bear.
Let’s pray for each other, as I know there are so many of you who may be in the same boat. What a consolation it is to know that we are all a part of the Mystical Body of Christ.
when all is darkness
and we feel our weakness and helplessness,
give us the sense of Your presence,
Your love, and Your strength.
Help us to have perfect trust
in Your protecting love
and strengthening power,
so that nothing may frighten or worry us,
for, living close to You,
we shall see Your hand,
Your purpose, Your will through all things.